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Title: fuck everyone
Date: 2006-12-14 @ 18:21
Security: public
Music: its not your fault
im getting so fed up with people's shit!
seriously. just grow up already.
if you dont want drama then stop saying to people "oh i heard this this and this about me, do you have a prob or something?" because quite frankly no one fucking cares including me.
and pretty much I have no friends anyway because they are all backstabbing bitches and assholes.
i cannot wait to graduate and get the fuck out of here.
and ya know all the guys i like just suck ass.
and the douch bag i used to like just ignores me everyday which proves my theory that i'm invisible and even my "friends" dont even like me.
fuck everybody.
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Title: Untitled
Date: 2006-11-27 @ 19:54
Security: public
Music: love me or hate me
Mood: amused amused

What Guys Love About Girls

  1. thay always smell good, even if it's just shampoo
  2. the way their head always finds the right spot on your shoulder
  3. the ease which they fit into your arms
  4. the way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world
  5. how cute they are when they eat
  6. the way they take hours to get dressed, but in the end it's all worthwhile
  7. because they are always warm, even when it's -30 degrees outside
  8. the way they look good no matter what they wear
  9. the way the fish for compliments
  10. how cute they are when they argue
  11. the way their hand always finds yours
  12. the way they smile
  13. the way you feel when you see their name on the caller ID after you just had a big fight
  14. they way they say "let's not fight anymore", even though you know an hour later...
  15. the way they kiss when you do something nice for them
  16. the way they kiss you when you say "I Love You"
  17. actually just the way they kiss you...
  18. the way they fall into your arms when they cry
  19. then the way they apologize about crying over something silly
  20. the way they hit and expect it to hurt
  21. then the way they apologize when it does hurt (though we don't admit it)
  22. they way they say "I Miss You"
  23. the way you miss them
  24. the way their tears make you want to change the world so it doesn't hurt them anymore
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Title: Dear 'ol dad
Date: 2006-11-25 @ 20:03
Security: public
Mood: blah blah
Dear 'Ol dad

Oh how I wish I could hate you
For tearing my family to pieces
For every condescending word you've said
I'm done wishing you could be nice instead

I hate this person I've become
Always angry, I'm mad at the world
Taking it out on the people I care for
I was never like this before

You're the Saddam Hussein of this house
Bringing terror and pain to your people
I wish that you would leave us alone
We could go back to the life I've always known

By now I'm used to your broken promises
Then why does each new one hurt
This is your routine, it's what you do
Oh how I wish I could hate you
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Title: The Thanksgiving song
Date: 2006-11-22 @ 20:37
Security: public
Music: say goodbye- chris brown
Mood: woooo bouncy
"They wanna hear the thanksgiving song! All right.."
"This is uhh, This is the Thanksgiving Song"
"I hope you enjoy it."

[Starts playing]
Love to eat turkey
Love to eat turkey

[Shout from Crowd:] "I love you Adam!"
[Adam Sandler:] "Ohhh, I love you!"
Love to eat turkey
'Cause it's good
Love to eat turkey
Like a good boy should
'Cause it's turkey to eat
So good

[Adam Sandler:] "That clappin's messing my head up man. I appreciate it.
But I was trying to think of the next line and all I hear is clapping.
Here we go... Thanks anyways"

Turkey for me
Turkey for you
Let's eat the turkey
In my big brown shoe
Love to eat the turkey
At the table
I once saw a movie
With Betty Grable
Eat that turkey
All night long
Fifty million Elvis fans
Can't be wrong
Turkey lurkey doo and
Turkey lurkey dap
I eat that turkey
Then I take a nap

Thanksgiving is a special night
Jimmy Walker used to say Dynomite
That's right
Turkey with gravy and cranberry
Can't believe the Mets traded Darryl Strawberry
Turkey for you and
Turkey for me
Can't believe Tyson
Gave that girl V.D.

White meat, dark meat
You just can't lose
I fell off my moped
And I got a bruise
Turkey in the oven
And the buns in the toaster
I'll never take down
My Cheryl Tiegs poster
Wrap the turkey up
In aluminum foil
My brother likes to masturbate
With baby oil
Turkey and sweet potato pie
Sammy Davis Jr.
Only had one eye

Turkey for the girls and
Turkey for the boys
My favorite kind of pants
Are corduroys
Gobble gobble goo and
Gobble gobble gickel
I wish turkey
Only cost a nickel
Oh I love turkey on Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving everybody!
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Title: DHS vs. HVHS November 11, 2006
Date: 2006-11-11 @ 18:48
Security: public
Location: moms room
Music: Ballin
Mood: Pumped..... HOOSAC SUCKS!!! hyper
We rocked the field
And KNOCKED HOOSAC OVER!






22- 0




The Devils rock the house






We fly High
NO LIE
We Ballin





God made the rivers,
God made the lakes.
God made Hoosac Valley
We all make Mistakes
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Title: hey dad, do you even know im alive?
Date: 2006-11-09 @ 21:34
Security: public
Location: moms room
Music: emotionless- good charlotte
Mood: crushed crushed

so my dad was supposed to come to the game saturday.
and like a fool i believed him.
i even got excited because i actually thought he was going to come.
im such an idiot.
he calls tonight and says he's not coming.
i should have known it was going to happen.
i just didnt wanna let myself think he wasn't coming.
it's like he has no idea im a live.
like he thinks i don't have feelings.
like he thinks he can do whatever the fuck he wants and im not gonna care.
and it's like he doesnt even care about me.
he hasnt seen a single parade yet.
its my first year cheering and he's made an excuse for every game why he cant come.
I feel like i dont matter to him.
and ya know what..... I probably don't.
his wife's always gonne be first.
and im ALWAYS going to be second.




Hey dad
I'm writing to you
not to tell you, that I still hate you
just to ask you
how you feel

are you happy out there in this great wide world?
do you miss your little girl?
when you lay your head down
how do you sleep at night?
do you even wonder if i'm all right?
we'll im alright

it's been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren't you there all the nights that we cried
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those are just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years learning how to survive
Now, I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive

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Title: in the end you will learn who is fake...
Date: 2006-11-04 @ 22:47
Security: public
Location: moms room
Music: 40 kinds of sadness
Mood: sad sad
" There comes a time when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will. In the end you will learn who is Fake, who is True, and who would risk it all for you."


my friends matter.
he never did.
Brett always will.
she is fake.
Kt is true.
these two would risk it all. 
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Title: confessions of a broken heart
Date: 2006-10-31 @ 19:23
Security: public
Location: moms room
Music: lose it all
Mood: depressed depressed

so its halloween.
woo.
so im going to freak out like right now. dont read if you dont wanna hear it.

so last friday i fucked up my ankle.
ive been on crutches for fucking 4 days.
and i fucking hate it.
and fucking chris doesnt even notice.
and to top that he hasnt talked to me in weeks.
so pretty much im done with that asshole.
it's just the fact that he says we're friends and ya know, how he says he cares about me, but he cant be bothered to talk to me or even fucking notice im on crutches. that's what really pisses me off. pretty much all that comes out of his fucking mouth is bullshit to my ears.
im like some invisible girl no one notices.
and im sick of it.
I bet if I died no one would even notice.
yeah so now i havent seen my dad since fucking the beginning of september.
he tells me he's going to come up and see me.
and then makes up some bullshit excuse why he cant.
he supposedly is coming for the Drury Hoosac game.
bet ya he wont even show.
and theres no fucking point in him coming anyway because i probably cant even cheer.
all the bastard's good for is getting my hopes up and then letting me down.
so fuck you asshole!
oh and im failing history so pretty much im not even gonna be on the squad anymore.
and ya know what, i dont even fucking care.
and then i have my mom guilt tripping me because of my ankle.
im a big burden now because god forbid she has to bring me to school in the morning so i dont kill myself trying to take the bus.
she made me do everything all weekend.
when i wasnt supposed to be doing anything.
i swear to god that if i just droppped dead no one would care and or probably notice.


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Title: Untitled
Date: 2006-10-18 @ 23:01
Security: public
Location: moms room
Music: too little too late
Mood: blah blah
"Lose It All"

Oh no
Take what you need 'cause I can't hold my breath
Say what you feel 'cause I got nothing left, oh
I made a promise to myself last night
I'm gonna keep it if it's wrong or right

And if I lose it all
There'll be nothing left to lose and I would take the fall
'Cause knowing you are out there breathing
It's so wonderful, it's a chance I take even if I break it
I lose it all, if I lose it all
Wouldn't matter anyway

Don't change a thing, perfect as you are
Time has a way, time is all I've got
If my heart should shatter watching you
That'd be one less thing I'd have to prove

And if I lose it all
There'll be nothing left to lose and I would take the fall
'Cause knowing you are out there breathing
It's so wonderful, it's a chance I take even if I break it
I lose it all, if I lose it all

Heaven will be waiting when I fall into your open arms
I believe you'll find me there
You'll find me there

And if I lose it all
There'll be nothing left to lose and I would take the fall
'Cause knowing you are out there breathing
It's so wonderful, it's a chance I take even if I break it
I lose it all, if I lose it all

And if I lose it all
There'll be nothing left to lose and I would take the fall
'Cause knowing you are out there breathing
It's so wonderful, it's a chance I take even if I break it
I lose it all, if I lose it all
Wouldn't matter anyway
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Title: incomplete
Date: 2006-10-17 @ 23:24
Security: public
Location: moms room
Music: incomplete-bsb
Mood: depressed depressed
this is how i feel today :


"Incomplete"

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find no way
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Incomplete
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